Things I’m still learning to say out loud.

My favorite quote growing up was always "take the risk, enjoy the fall, if it's meant to be, it's worth it all." I used to say it all the time, I had it on my lockscreen until high school and I always thought it to myself whenever I went to do something that felt scary. I really believed in this quote for a long part of my life and it got me through all the risks I was scared to take growing up, moving to NY by myself at 19 and leaving behind everything I knew, modeling audit

If I’m honest, there are days when I feel the world is forcing me to toughen up and be more independent than God created me to be. If you know me you know I believe in traditional gender roles rooted in my faith. Well… recently I’ve come to the realization that my true journey isn’t about building my worth, rather about protecting the softness I was born with. And that’s not easy for a woman to do in today’s corporate girly, hyper-independent society. I want to share my heart

For most of my life, I was sold a lie. That I needed to do it all on my own. That I could never truly rely on a man, and that wanting to made me less. That success meant staying busy and controlling every aspect of my life, down to the last detail. I micromanaged everything… my schedule, my future, even my emotions. I bottled everything up and didn’t allow myself to ever truly feel. I lived in my masculine energy constantly…and at the time, I didn’t even know what the heck th